Its Been Awhile sorrry :/ i promised i would keep up with the blog. It keeps me focused. Its always something to do when I felt like eating ya know. But surprisingly ive been doing well. I mean I haven't been doing GREAT but i'm sure i havent eaten as much as the average person (haha i guess) but on Sunday I decided to sleep over at my boyfriends house because there wasnt any school monday (teacher work day). his cousin was over and his parents decided to go all out for dinner. My boyfriend tells me the only time his mom's made steak recently were the times ive been over. shes the cutest little thing. last time she made steak it was barely edible. it was way too bloody but it was okay because i like my steak a little undercooked. A LITTLE ! but i would never tell her it wasnt good so i just ate it. So on sunday she made more steak and it was horrible. i couldnt believe how underdone it was... but being the wonderful girlfriend that i am, i forced it down. ew god. it was like rubber i couldnt even cut it. even my boyfriend said it was too undercooked but it didnt seem to bother him to much so i didnt say anything either. so that night we got high with some friends of his & i got the munchiess to add insult to injury. i was a fucking cow. when i went to bed that night i could barely move. my stomach hurt so bad with the combination of still-living cow and just too much food all crammed together in my stomach. i never really fell asleep. i drifted in and out of consciousness looking at the clock everytime just waiting for his parents to go to work so i could hit the bathroom before he woke up. my stomach rumbled and before i could control it, i ran to the bathroom and thank god i threw up my gluttony... 3 times before i left. and three times when i got home. it was awful. but such a relief. so anyways i didnt eat all day yesterday and i havent eating much today. what i ate today was just to live because i have zero appetite for anything. ive just been really dizzy from not eating. im using this as a jumpstart to a new streak. after only two days of not eating & throwing up bones are popping up all over the place. yayy! i am really weak which is the only downside but its not like i have anything that requires energy except pe. which is an easy because my teacher loves me :) ugh so anyways i need a napp so ill be sure to post again tomorrrrow or later today. i dont realize how much i missss my blog and reading others until ive been gone for awhile.